Should I do anything about this?

Ten months ago I found out my boyfriend of 7 seven years had been sleeping with his married boss for two months (she has two kids), he chose to be with her, I told him I hoped it was worth it, walked away and we haven't spoken since. Then I saw him out on Saturday, we spoke briefly. He didn't look good at all, kind of run down. I made the conversation brief, as I still miss him and my heart is still broken, and I didn't want to get into that with him. I acted very happy, and have no idea if he is still with his boss. What I don't get is he asked to hold my hand over and over and I said no over and over, I ended the conversation soon after. If he wanted to be with her so badly, and still is why in the hell was he asking to hold my hand? Does that really mean anything? Now he's on my mind, I want to write him and say it was nice seeing him etc. but I know I shouldn't and will regret it, I am just so scared that this will be the last time I see him for a long time and that kills me, I would just like for him to make some sort of effort to apologize, reach out etc. I don't know if he will especially now that I acted like I had moved on.

Wisen Smart

Stop dreaming in la la land. Face reality. It was bad enough losing your marriage, don't lose the lesson and the dignity that goes with it.

I know the feeling, been there, done that, and by caving in to his need of a comfort zone cost me double the pain because I had to go over the same pain it once caused me, when once should have been enough.

Ego plays a priority role in the unfaithful. They need to feel still "wanted" and it feeds their ego when people like you give in to a false sense of "hope". Please do not do it. I guarantee you will regret it. Once was bad enough, second time is going to hurt triple. Move on, and even if he realizes you have not recuperated completely from his betrayal, at least you have enough dignity to move on as opposed to him who has none.

blueberry

don't bother with that looser move on happily

*S!LL!3G00B3R*TTC

dont worry about him he choose her not u. dont go back if u dare. hes old news. theres more things out here in the real world than thinking of ur ex....

Aly E.

I wouldn't care about him, it's time to start with someone new.

Lea R

Perhaps his wanting to hold your hand was a form of apology for him.
I wouldn't wait around for him to tell you he's sorry.
How would you know he was sincere. He's a cheater after all.
Why are you scared that you won't see him again?
I'd be happy if I never saw a person or the people who betrayed my trust but that's me.
If you do try to contact him, you may just end up opening a can 'o worms as they say.

SandwichGeneration

One thing I suggest that you consider is do you want suffer for a short period of time or suffer for a long period of time? I can see that you are hurting right now, seeing him brought back some feelings for you; these feelings will ease in intensity if you move on and don't try to contact him. You stand a very good chance of prolonging your suffering, if you get back in touch with him. If he cheated on you once, it's likely he would again; and even if he didn't could you ever forget what he did? He might regret that you are out of his life now, but I think he was acting in a very selfish way to ask you to hold his hand; especially since he has never apologized. So; your choice, is he worth the risk that you could be prolonging your own suffering?

China Doll 3

Well it is totally up to you, but after that could you really trust him, don't forget trust is the most important thing in any relationship if you don't have that it will never work.

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